Finals

Finals are right around the corner. I spent this cold day in my cozy apartment reading the last family law assignment for Monday's final class. Fifty five pages took me most of the day. I'm still reading as slowly as ever.

I'm concerned because I should have begun to felt fear and anxiety by now regarding finals. My outlines aren't done and my knowledge of the subjects is cursory. Instead I feel anxiety about my current job (boredom is the rule rather than the exception) and fear about not getting a decent job for the summer in Seattle. I keep looking at firms online that might hire me and then I feel that sinking feeling in the pit of my abdomen which is the fear of going through the rejection process all over again.

I (sort of) know what I want. I just need to work (harder) to get there. Chugga chugga...