Rejection

There is a steady stream of rejection letters coming through the mailbox right now. It is demoralizing to know that they will likely continue with the jobs I'm planning on applying to in the next couple of weeks, since the applicant pool for all of those jobs is so competitive.

I don't get the feeling that the Alaska Supreme Court interview went all that well. It didn't go poorly, but it was only 30 minutes long, and it felt like the Justice talked for at least 12 minutes of that time. I don't feel like I was able to get my personality out, to stand out from the pack. I just had standard responses and standard questions prepared. And he was planning on conducting interviews at eight other schools, most of which are more highly ranked than mine. He said they'd let us know in early- to mid-October.

I'm startying to panic that I don't have a job. I know it is rough out there; I know lots of my fellow 3Ls won't have jobs when they graduate. I know this in my head. That doesn't change the reality that I'm practically praying not to be one of those 3Ls. I need to broaden my scope. I need to accept what is offered to me. I need to stop thinking that a miracle is going to happen. And I need to work harder to get somewhere that I'll be happy with what I'm doing.