Still Alive

I'm still alive. I didn't intentionally abandon the blog - it has been a busy and difficult couple of months.

At the end of January was the LGBT Moot Court Competition. There were three of us, including my partner from NAAC. He ended up winning the Best Oral Advocate Award for the competition - I was so proud. It was nice to get out of Eugene and see a little slice of LA (very little since we never went beyond a square mile radius of the hotel).

In February the attorney I worked for over the summer called me with an emergency editing project. She told me she would pay me doubletime, which was great, because otherwise I wouldn't have been able to make room in my schedule to do the project. She still has yet to pay me, and it is now April. Nor has she paid me for the work I did for her in December. She keeps promising to send it my way and then has a reason why she hasn't. This reinforces my initial resolve not to work for her after school if I can in any way avoid it. I need more organization in my career. I hope I can stick to this resolve. At the end of the month I had an interview with a judge in Portland. I walked away knowing that I didn't get it - not much of a connection. I got the rejection letter yesterday.

In March, Grandpa passed away. I missed a week of school to be with the family and help with the arrangements. I'm still catching up, and still dealing with his death. It's hitting me in different ways than I expected.

My 25th birthday was this weekend. I went out with friends, so that was enjoyable. But it has made me feel old and unaccomplished.

So, the reason I haven't been posting is that life hasn't been easy lately. I'm still really happy with my relationship, and the people around me at school, but I'm struggling to stay focused at school, particularly when most of my classes this semester deal with death. It feels like this time is about the end of a lot of things - the end of having a grandfather, the end of three years of law school, the end of the 18-24 age bracket, the end of this stage of my life. I really hope things start to be about beginnings rather than endings soon.